Happy New Year

I cant believe another year has whizzed by me.... 2009 was such a learning year, I am learning to value each day your given and to live it surrounded by those who love you and to love those people with your whole heart. That even though the year started out rough there were so many great days so when times are hard to remember there will be sunshine just around the corner... I have an amazing husband, three great dogs, and a life I wouldn't trade with anyone... Life is good!!!

2010 is going to be an amazing year... I feel it already

Happy Thanksgiving

Had the greatest Thanks Giving ever... My parents (in-laws) and my niece came down and made the day truly awesome...

I cant help but reflect on last year. I had been in the hospital out of the country for almost two months not knowing what the future had in store for me. I found out quickly what matters most in this world and that is those you hold close to your heart and those who hold you close. I am so thankful for the beautiful, loving people in my life. I am thankful God blessed me so abundantly... Happy Thanksgiving friends near and far. I love you

Loving Life

Life is great, really loving our new home. I got the whole house unpacked in less then two weeks so I feel good about that. I didn't really need to do a whole lot of painting as the person before us had my taste in colors so that was good. Everything looks good now just have to do little things here and there. We still feel like we are on vacation really enjoying the great weather. We live on the water and I saw my first gator about week two and I was soooooo excited I almost peed my pants. I have seen 3 of them so far. Tim calls me Mrs do little as I feed a bunch of turtles and birds from our dock every day. They all had names but they look so much alike that they intermingle names daily.

The great news is I am a mother again. We brought a new girl into our family her name is Daisy Mae Cleland and she turned 8 weeks yesterday. I am exhausted... She is a beautiful wonderful handful that loves to use her teeth and when I say they are sharp I am not even close... The problem is she likes to bite my lips, ouch!!

God is good and he has really been blessing me, giving me peace and filling voids. Life is good.

One Week

OMG, I cant believe it, one week from today I will be on a plane going to my new home... The feelings of loss are starting to settle in... I am such a private person and I don't have allot of friends but those that I do have are so near and dear to me. The thought of leaving them really breaks my heart...
Then there is Tim's mom. She has been one of the greatest influences in my adult life. She has truly been a mother and friend to me and I have not allowed myself to even think of a separation between the two of us until this week and thought my heart would rip out of my chest. So I quickly put that thought away, they will be helping us move down so we get an extra week with them... I pray that they move down with us... We shall see...

Im not Lost

So, it has been way too long since I have blogged and so much has been going on. For those of you who don't know, we are moving. Yep, we move on the 30th of the month and couldn't be more excited. Things have been way crazy though. We weren't looking for a move although we have wanted it for a long long time. Tim got a call out of the blue about a job, we put the house on the market it sold a week later bought our house that weekend and the rest is history. We will be going from 4,300 square feet of home to 2,200 so pretty much cutting our house in half. We bought a bigger house here thinking one day we were going to fill it with babies. Oh well that didn't happen. I am kind of looking forward to cleaning it. it is going to be done in a flash. More time to swim in the pool... Its funny what happens when your not looking for it!!!

I still am having some medical issues but I really feel they will be over VERY soon. I have my stint removed on the 24th. At the last appointment he said he believes my stomach is closed but wouldn't know for sure without going in and/or having a contrast done. Just from my perspective I really do think things are looking up. I know very soon I will be saying I am healed...

Life is really great, I am coming to terms with all sorts of decisions and really feel good about how life has turned out. I do believe I will always wonder how things would have been with children but do know I am incredibly blessed with a handful of friends and family that loves me. Most importantly I have a strong relationship with God and feel His presence even when I am hurting. Life is good...

Happy Birthday

Happy Birthday My Love,

Oh how I thank God for this day 38 years ago... For bringing you into the world to be my husband, confidant, friend, shoulder to lean on, hand to hold my everything... My life before you was sad in comparison. I am so blessed to be able to just sit beside you. I love you beyond words.
Happy Birthday

Let the sun shine

Oh my gosh, the past two days the weather has been beyond outstanding. Today it was in the 90's. We actually had to turn on the air conditioner today. Unfortunately I didn't have allot of time to enjoy it. Both days were filled to the brim. Luckily, its going to be nice the next two days so I am going to plant some flowers we bought yesterday and spend my day outside tomorrow.

Today was compassion day at church and they spoke about an organization that sponsors poor children in other countries. I cried through out the whole presentation. Needless to say, we are sponsoring both a girl and a boy. My little girls name is named Marieth she is from Tanzania, she turns 6 in two days. I am already in love with her. Our boys name is Felix he is from Peru and he just turned 6 in February. I cant wait to receive my first picture from my beautiful kids.

I had a rough night emotionally on Friday. I was holding my god-daughter dancing with her and out of no where my heart just broke. I still want so badly to dance with my own little girl and holding her was a reminder of just how beautiful this feeling is and how vacant my heart feels without her. I pray that this feeling one day subsides and I can move forward without this sadness in my heart.