OMG, I cant believe it, one week from today I will be on a plane going to my new home... The feelings of loss are starting to settle in... I am such a private person and I don't have allot of friends but those that I do have are so near and dear to me. The thought of leaving them really breaks my heart... Then there is Tim's mom. She has been one of the greatest influences in my adult life. She has truly been a mother and friend to me and I have not allowed myself to even think of a separation between the two of us until this week and thought my heart would rip out of my chest. So I quickly put that thought away, they will be helping us move down so we get an extra week with them... I pray that they move down with us... We shall see...
So, it has been way too long since I have blogged and so much has been going on. For those of you who don't know, we are moving. Yep, we move on the 30th of the month and couldn't be more excited. Things have been way crazy though. We weren't looking for a move although we have wanted it for a long long time. Tim got a call out of the blue about a job, we put the house on the market it sold a week later bought our house that weekend and the rest is history. We will be going from 4,300 square feet of home to 2,200 so pretty much cutting our house in half. We bought a bigger house here thinking one day we were going to fill it with babies. Oh well that didn't happen. I am kind of looking forward to cleaning it. it is going to be done in a flash. More time to swim in the pool... Its funny what happens when your not looking for it!!!
I still am having some medical issues but I really feel they will be over VERY soon. I have my stint removed on the 24th. At the last appointment he said he believes my stomach is closed but wouldn't know for sure without going in and/or having a contrast done. Just from my perspective I really do think things are looking up. I know very soon I will be saying I am healed...
Life is really great, I am coming to terms with all sorts of decisions and really feel good about how life has turned out. I do believe I will always wonder how things would have been with children but do know I am incredibly blessed with a handful of friends and family that loves me. Most importantly I have a strong relationship with God and feel His presence even when I am hurting. Life is good...
This blog started out as an outlet and outreach following our adoption process both from Kazakhstan and the US....A process that and didnt work out for us. I am married to a man I adore, have a beautiful home with 3 amazing kids(ahhh I mean dogs) see pictures, we have Charming Champ, Big Boy Bruiser, and Lovely Lilly.
I like to think I am fun loving. funny, sensitive, giving, good person...