Okay so this is going to seem random but its not... Tim and I are really struggling with some decisions . Here is the story. I will try to make it brief. When we got married, we decided to leave it up to God when we would have children. Turns out we struggled with infertility and so we tried many things for a few years to conceive but to no avail. Then decided okay we are done no babies... (more Tim then I) so to my surprise years later in December 06 Tim said he wanted to adopt. As you all know we started and have been in the process for over a year and as of today as soon as our program director calls me back we will be withdrawing from Kazakhstan.
We really live a great life. We are financially secure, madly in love, have so much freedom to do whatever we want or as little as we want. I can sleep all day, shower when I want, shop when I want, anything I want. We honestly aren't missing a thing. We now are starting to think what are we doing. We should stop the whole adoption thing and live our life just as it is. I talked to a wonderful friend and she said this was normal. We realize we cant go back once they are here... Are we crazy, should we stop, should we go forward... I really don't know... Lord, I just pray for Your clarity... Please keep this/us in your prayers and any advice you want to send I gladly welcome it...
P.S. on a totally different note I wanted to pat myself on the back and say as of last month it has been 5 years since quitting smoking... I have NO desire to ever start again.. Woo Hoo
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you'll figure it out. It's tough to give all that freedom up but I think it's worth it. :)
It's been 7 years since I quit smoking. I still think about it sometimes but know I will never do it again. Good for you! Congrats!
Congrats on being smoke free for 5 years - that is so awesome!!!
No one can answer the family question except for you.... It is hard - we were used to freedom for nearly 9 years of marriage and enjoyed life as well. Deep in our hearts, we wanted a child to love. Now that he is here, I can't imagine life without him and havn't thought twice about any freedoms lost. I think we have gained more than we have lost ;)
Decisions are scary and hard - follow your heart. There are times in life where there are no wrong answers - you have to pick the right answer for you.
Follow your heart, follow your instinct. That is what is most important. You have to do what is best for you and only you and God know what that is. And its a decision you can change your mind on later.
Congrats on quitting smoking, that is an incredible feat!
I have to add my congrats on quitting smoking--what a great thing you did for yourself.
I feel for you and all the questions and decisions you are facing. As a waiting parent I know that questions come up every day about what we are doing. It is something only you can answer and you can only do what is best for you--there are no wrong choices in this journey.
Best of luck to you.
Congrats on being smoke free. I quit too and haven't thought about it at all. 5 years is great! God will answer your questions, it is normal to have reservations but it is totally worth it!
Kim
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