Just in case you didn't receive our email I wanted to let you know after great consideration and lots of prayers, we have decided to stop the adoption process. I can tell you even though we feel this is the right thing for us it is definitely one of the most painful decisions we have ever made. We just know we cant keep riding this train of emotions anymore. We will concentrate on taking care of each other and healing our grief. Any and all prayers are appreciated.
There are so many things I wish I had never done like buying her name sign. Oh my how I love that sign. For those of you who don't know her name was going to be Layla Grace... I wish I hadn't finished her room. Although, it is so beautiful and sweet. I went in and sat in her chair and held Lilly and cried for a while yesterday. So many times in the past I sat there holding Lilly with a smile. Telling her when the "real baby" comes she wont be able to fit on my lap too. I have to call BabiesRus and see if they will take back some of the furniture, all the stuff I bought, and cancel my baby registry.
I am not sure if I will be on line for a while I know right now I am pretty raw and trying not to limit what I will and will not do for now. I do know God will get us through this and as always I praise Him in this storm... Keep lifting us up though...
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We are thinking of you. You know I am here for you if you ever want to talk.
I feel your pain.................I'm sure whatever brought you to this decision you will find peace. Don't worry about other stuff - take care of yourselves!
Darlene
I have to say that I was crying reading this post. It brought back so many emotions for me. We were supposed to travel to Kaz for a girl and had everything ready. Well long story short, here is Joshua. I do not question the Lords plan for a moment but the pain of packing away all the girly things is hard sometimes. I do pray for peace in your decision and that Gods plan is revealed to you.
Kim
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