Tomorrow

Well, I am going for my Endoscope tomorrow. Its funny because I was cool as a cucumber but now all of a sudden I am nervous. I told Tim that last night and he said are you kidding me, you are the toughest person I know. You were in the hospital for over two months, almost died, endured more medical treatments than most people go through in a lifetime. Yes Dear, but I haven't had to do anything in over a month... I know in my heart its going to be no big deal but I am human and really hope there is no pain or gagging involved...

I am also praying that is no accumulative snow. It is snowing now but very lightly. There is light coverage on the ground but the roads look good. Today is one of those gray days where you just want to stay in bed all day or sit by a fire... I think I will go take a shower and then start a fire and read a bit and then maybe watch a movie... Sounds like a great plan.

Doctors

I had my appointment yesterday with the specialist. I didn't hear exactly what I wanted to hear but at least there is some resolution coming my way. He said if the hole in my stomach hasn't healed with this long of time, it never would on its own. So, I will have to be operated on again. He is going to do a scope to see how extensive of a surgery he has to do. He may have to go in and re-route things or he may be able to do an easy repair...I of course, am praying for the less invasive of the two. I will let you know how the scope goes...

On the bright side I really thought he was going to put me on a feeding tube again but not only did that not happen, he told me that I could eat solid foods , Also, I could sleep on my side and stomach. Its funny I have slept on my stomach my whole life. I have only slept on my back for the past 3 months. Last night I tried sleeping on my side and stomach and it felt foreign to me... My back appreciated it though...

Anniversary Week

Yep you guessed it, this week was our wedding anniversary, 15 years. First off I am so proud to be married that long in a time where people break for little to no reason. Yet, I wonder where the time went. I can remember almost every single detail of that day. We went to the courthouse, we didn't want the fuss of a big, everyone looking at us celebration. There are some days I regret this but it doesn't last for long. The truth of the matter is, its the marriage part that counts not the wedding. Although, a beautiful white dress would have been nice... ...

Not too much to report on the health front, I finally go to see the specialist this Wednesday and hopefully he will have, or make a plan for me. So maybe I will be re operated on, be put on liquid nourishment for a while, or we just wait. I am trying not to think about it too much, just sit back and see what God has in store for me... I am just glad to finally be looking at some sort of closure... pun intended

Happy New Year

We had a nice quite New Years Eve. We went to Toys r us on Tuesday and updated our game selection. So we played some games and waited until the ball dropped to have some sweet smooches. woo hoo... It was nice.

Yesterday we went to the movies to finally see 4 Christmas's it was cute, glad we got to see it there are plenty more movies I want to see right now but there are playoff games all weekend so that is going to have to wait... I already have to stuff in taking the boys to get washed, returning some gifts, and hitting the grocery store before the first game on Saturday... UUUGGGHHH

Anyway, I wish you all the very best year ever...

Sitting Around

Why is it when your just sitting around doing nothing its kind of nice. Yet when you have to sit around doing nothing it's torture? I have realized the less I do the better I get, yet knowing I have to take it easy only makes me want to move furniture and clean behind it. The old saying you always want what you cant have comes to mind... I never had a problem sitting around watching TV all day in the past... Oh well, soon enough this will all seem like a faded dream.

I have Vertigo and let me tell you it stinks. I went to the Doctors last week and he said that it was viral and would only last up to a week. Well, we are going on two weeks now and I am not liking it at all. Thank God I am only dizzy, no nausea, or ear problems. Just feel a little drunk, woo hoo...

Other then that life is beautiful and I am blessed to be on this earth. If I don't write again I wish you all a VERY HAPPY NEW YEAR, my wish is that you treasure your family and loved ones and have peace, love, health, and joy all through the new year...

Merry Christmas

Just wanted to wish you all a Very Merry Christmas.... Hope your day was filled to the brim with love and laughter.

Also wanted to thank God for bringing me home for Christmas, it was the greatest gift ever being able to spend time with family. I was so far away for so long I cant even express how lucky I feel to be here. I am blessed....

Back to the ER

Well, I have had a cough this week and my fistula reopened so I have to go back to the ER and have a feeding tube put in... I am so unhappy about this. Although the liquid diet wasn't my favorite I felt so free. I am hoping that this time they put the one that goes into your side and directly into the intestines. That would be soooo much better. We shall see... I am waiting until tomorrow morning to go being that its not a real urgent matter. I just leak a bit of what I drink...

Anyway, keep me in your prayers...